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:: Tuesday, August 29, 2006 ::
i miss blogging.. i really do..
but somehow, i cant bring myself to blog a lengthy one right now, even on my off day.. because.. im still very very lethargic.. sorry.. so a short one it'll be..
abang and i have been struggling to meet each other each and every day.. and we managed.. despite the clashes.. woohoo! its good la, tat we are still trying to keep everything in place.. thanks abang, for being so understanding & patient with me.. you're the best!! mwaaks!
and what's up with school? yay! i managed to complete them filthy assignments on a daily basis.. one question, one day.. heehee! and now im done! only right now, those papers are with sheila.. hopefully she didn't plagiarize the whole of my researchs.. or i'd skin her to death.. if you're reading this dear sheila, heehee..
i've been on night shift for quite awhile seyy.. so very tired.. i kept nodding myself off several times, and sometimes i would jump when the phone rings in the middle of my doze.. there's even one instance when the phone rang & i picked up my handphone instead! haha! tat was funny!
and yesterday, someone got on my nerves.. there's tis person who kept giving me missed calls, and when i called tat number back, tat person did not answer.. irritating right? and only yesterday, tis stupid person have the guts to sms me.. and when i interrogate tat arse, he just won't reveal himself.. and its tis sms which gave his identity away..
"emm,i dont no whr ar did u nmbr... mybe ur nmbr... get me lucky nmbr kot.. he he he ;-)"
nope.. i dun understand the msg.. neither does any of u, right? it was written in pri 3's standard of english, for God's sake! but the word "kot" which is underlined was what triggered the assumption tat tis guy is not local, possibly malaysian.. so i checked on my office's comp for all staff contacts and there.. it was that irritating bellhop's num.. see see.. i can be so efficient sometimes..
wat irritates me a hell lot is the fact tat he have the cheek to steal my num.. i noe he must have gotten it from my office's comp, since its the only resource for all the staff contact nums.. i mean, tats the same as stealing!! no respect at all, not to say, RUDE! oh God.. im still very very upset.. told abang abt it, and was told to complain.. guess wat, i AM going to complain.. im going to complain abt the intrusion of my privacy, and im going to bring up the fact tat unauthorized personnels have been entering my office.. i WILL!! i will and i will.. argghhhh!!!!!!!!
in the meantime, anyone wanna have his number?
here : +6582065915
the name's tan..
go go go!
heehee!
orait! i've gotten rid of this resentment and hatred.. so now, im going to get ready.. meeting abang in awhile.. so bye!!
@ 6:42 PM
:: Sunday, August 27, 2006 ::
i dislike it. i despise it. i hate it to the ultimum core.
time.
time is always not on our side. time always finds a reason to sneak into our perfectly planned plans. time never fails to disappoint the both of us.
time can be so cruel.
why???
boring ah!
dah. im done.
-fiza-
@ 12:25 PM
:: Friday, August 25, 2006 ::
helo baby! wat a great mornin!! lets forget all our problems and enjoy this great day! :)
man i didn have enuf sleep.. slept ard 245am yest and woke up ard 630am.. and now im in the office.. darn! so the boring man!! yest i weng of late from work, almost 1 hour ++ latel lehh.. no OT somemore.. there was complications wit the networks and so the calls from the users flooded me.. luckily, i work well under pressure.. see what the ARMY teaches u? *WinK*
was actually plannin to go to bugis after work yest wit adi and mone.. but when i was about to go off from work, about 745.. they were still at tengah! sape yg nk gi tunggu dorang seyy.. so i went home lor..
lunch time yest ngan bubu.. haiZz just speakin of her makes me mish her so much seyy.. all this missin each other so much is affectin both of us seyy.. aiyo.. how to resolve eh.. both our schedules keep clashing.. (but we still manage to meet every day ) hehehe
arghh.. the server still down! ppl still calling! sori cant blog now.. will do so soon.. bubye syg..
1437 bubu..
muackz!
@ 8:16 AM
:: Thursday, August 24, 2006 ::
good morning sayang!! (i'm pretty sure you're gonna read this in the morning)
whew! that's two ticks off the check list.. im sorry abang.. i know you want me to sleep but i just can't.. not when i am having some unfinished tasks.. in this case, my researches.. and guess what.. i'm done with two of the four seemingly complicated & long-winded questions.. woohoo! now, can relax abit la.. yay!! wait.. cannot be too relaxed.. i have two more questions which i don't have a clue as to its head nor tail.. can't make much sense out of it!! but no worries.. i'll try and i'll try.. i know i can..
so funny la.. only the first day of school and the lecturer gave us a pretty hard time.. tick tock.. 7pm, distribution of texts, attendance marking and its introduction to the subject.. whatever happened to introduce-yourselves-on-the-first-day-of-school sessions man?? i mean, we barely have a clue as to what we're supposed to be doing and suddenly *poof*.. the lecturer wrote some questions on the whiteboard for our homework.. what the??? and to make life even difficult, i don't even know any of the students in my class save sheila, who is pretty dependent on me for the answers by the way, so who am i going to turn to for any inquiries?? grrr.. well, the lecturer's simple answer: learn to do your own research.. errr.. okay.. well im halfway done here mr botak-tek.. hrmph!
and yea yea.. we were only given 3mins of break.. on a 2 1/2 hours of lecture!! unreasonable? maybe. but pretty understandable.. mr nair's again short and sweet reply: don't want to waste time. ye kan jelah..
well enuff of school.. after which, abang fetched me.. yay! enlightened my distressed spirits abit upon seeing him.. chilled at the dam.. so romantic.. feel very at ease whenever i'm with him.. we didn't speak much.. just being beside each other is enough to make romeo and juliet shrivelled up in intense jealousy. sigh.. and yet we left the place feeling like we just had the best conversation ever.. our hearts did the talking? maybe.. sigh.. just thinking about it makes me go swoon swoon.. (gaze into the stars)
err okay.. i'd better go sleep now.. meeting abang again tomorrow later.. can hardly wait! abang.. i miss u so.. wait for me k?! mwaaks! love you with all my heart..
-bububububu-
@ 2:42 AM
:: Wednesday, August 23, 2006 ::
wahlau eyy.. abang.. dun praise2 me too much la.. later i become very malu la.. (covers face, run and hide behind a nearby tree ala hindustan)
work was so-so.. nothing so interesting happened.. like usual, bla bla bla yakkety yak into the phone, type type into the computer and type type into my phone (replying to abang's smses of course).. and i was so indulged in my current love novel.. the one we loaned from the national lib last night.. guess what.. i even cried.. but i told eileen that something got into my eye.. causing irritation.. so i dab and dab my eyes with tissue.. but i think she knows la i was crying due to the story i was reading.. because she said,"haiyah.. so emotional one ah u?".
oops!!! bubble busted!
okay okay.. im now so effing shagged plus boring.. erk? ala.. sebok la.. i was typing when i noticed my mama squinting a few feet behind me, obviously in desperate efforts to see what i am up to.. kaypoh!! so unlike the daughter one!! (places a halo on my head). now where was i? hmph! already so malas wanna type.. krekrkere!
im going off to school in around 45 mins time.. so excited, but still so the kanchiong.. relax relax.. breathe in, breathe out.. go go go! i can do it.. whew! ehh jap jap.. sheila call.. "oi makcik.. keluar kul brape?".."kul 615 tu mcm ah".."oh okay okay.. dah sampai call aku tau".."yeah baybeh".."bye".."beramzzz"..
abang!! im now compiling the cds that you want.. heehee! cant wait to meet you later.. so the excited hor.. so missing you already.. sighz.. life can sometimes be so cruel.. but whenever im with you, all that cruelty in life crap doesn't seem to exist.. am i right, fellow people? ape yang aku merepek pun aku tak tau..
abang.. you say you wanna chat on email mah.. your office comp must throw into the sea already la.. wahlau eh.. hrmph! menyampah! bucuk! tengok.. you left me here hoping and hoping for a chance to see your email in my inbox.. you so the jahat one!
okaylah.. i wanna go siap2 already.. from shagged, to lazy.. don't want that to happen aight.. bye now!
abang.. i love you!! see you later sweets.. mwaaks (not to u la nadiah.. to ur brother). hehe! *winkz*
-bubumu moomoo-
@ 5:06 PM
:: ::
helo!
lunch was not nice.. food din taste like usual.. basi ke?? dunno leh.. well, like normal, im missin my bubu.. shes goin home soon.. best kan kan kan.. but i'll still be stuck here till evening.. sigh..
yesterday was noice~ met bubu after work.. she looked somewhat different.. i see her as if its the first time i saw her.. like so the extra cute,... seriously seyy, she looked B E A U T I F U L tau.. tau tau.. lek eh tkmo kembang eh.. its just what i thnk of u syg...
so off we went.. walkin around town, towards national library.. hmm, is it still national library or wats the name lee kong sumthing library.. so is tat considered the national library now?? dunno... biar la.. i cant stop lookin at my dearest.. reali seyy, like sumthin diff tau.. like as if i fall in love over again wit her.. her looks captivated me... s if dats not enuf.. her cute smile and cheeky attitude melts me.. haizZzz ~floats in air~
oops.. got werk to do..
chao first.. sowi2 halfway write..
kekekeke
muackz! (to my bubu only)
@ 1:48 PM
:: Tuesday, August 22, 2006 ::
abang!! wee.. kecian abang kena work.. look at me, relaxing on my off day.. hehe!
abang.. actually kan, i planned to surprise you on your lunchtime.. konon2 nak bangun siang la, then suddenly appear at your lift lobby.. but sadly, my alarm clock gave up on me after a few snoozes.. sorry yah! surprise dalam mimpi.. heehee!
aik? abang msg.. heehee!
alala.. kecian dia lonely ek? sorry abang.. *slaps myself*
sigh.. no one's home on my off day.. how sad is that? hmm.. i personally think i haven't been a good sister and daughter of late.. all i did was sleep, wake up, go to work and the cycle continues.. i see less of everyone in my household nowadays.. blame it on the 3-11 (read: no life!) schedule.. nevermind.. i'll just continue for awhile more then jump myself to any office hour job.. don't worry k my dears.. kakak (katak) will be back soon..
hmm.. let's see.. plans for later.. i'll be fetching abang from work.. then we'll go to the library tau tau tauuuuu! i'm done with my second novel from linda fairstein.. i think i'm hooked on that author now.. detectives, crime scenes, criminal suspects, homicide squads.. heehee! really interesting.. and whenever someone at work pops his/her head into my office and sees me reading that book, they will ask,"you understand meh, this kind of story??". then what am i?? illiterate? of course i understand.. that's the only reason why i bother to borrow this book from the library dammit!
hmm.. what else eh i wanna blabber.. oh yeah! someone's (winkwink! i know she's reading this) birthday is coming up.. but wahlau eh! all her wants for her birthday is damned damned expensive sia! i can smell the burning of mine and abang's pockets already.. heehee! but dear oh dear nadiah, we WILL celebrate your birthday in a rather unique way okay? the others can go ahead and splurge you with the pressies.. your abang and i, we'll do something different alright? we will splurge you with many many memoirs on your 18th birthday.. the only problem now is, we haven't decide on anything yet.. guess i'll have to leave that to my dear oh dear abang.. heehee!
okay okay.. what else, what else.. hmm.. tomorrow i'll be working 7am-3pm.. arghh!! the waking up part is the hardest! i'll have to wake up at 5am!! its always a pain to wake up so early and see everyone else so peacefully asleep.. damned! but okay la.. after 3pm, it'll be their turn to feel the pain of watching me skip gaily home, whilst they have to suffer few more hours of work.. haha! oh yeah.. tomorrow's first day of school.. god help me! so very nervous sia! but okay la.. sheila will be there with me.. woot woot! atleast not so mortifying.. you know how first days of school are!
weyy.. i don't know what to write already la.. bye la!
abang!! wo ai ni!! we'll meet later k kekanda ku yang cantik rupawan.. (???) okay okay.. mepek! wait wait.. what am i going to do after this? *scratches head and armpits* argh! watch tv.. kill time! okay my precious.. see you later.. muacks muacks!
-bubu (dubur) daym!!-
@ 1:42 PM
:: Monday, August 21, 2006 ::
cian my bubu..
well syg, dun feel toooo bad.. i understand.. im not lovin u any lesser... in fact, ive learned to appreciate and treasure u more n more..
yest, woke up, woke bubu up.. sent her to work, then went to ecp, met the guys... then gi sembawang.. pancing la konon.. takde ikan jek.. then to tengah.. then lestari.. then tengah.. then fetch bubu..
see see.. haizzZ
my life is so boring without my bubu.. like monotonous like dat seyy..
its as if ive lost complete interest in everything and everyone else....
kuat betol si bomoh siam ni ah.. kekekekeke
well, im tryin the best i can to be as understanding as possible k syg.. eventhough i may merengek here merengek there.. its just a cry of attention.. heehee.. i like it when its her turn to pamper me.. bley jadi cam baby.. nk chom! bluek..
well, its already 1819.. waitin for it to be 1830!! wanna go home.. mamam.. bathe.. then go over to bik lin's house.. gi gode2 laptop mmg ijan.. and then? well, yay!! off to fetch my darling bubu again!!
today is the last day shes working mid shift!! yabadabadooooo
oh ya, u know wat?? tadi time bubu gi werk, ader this perverted negro keep following her.. until my bubu scared seyy.. then he stopped her and asked for her number.. telling her shes beautiful la, this la.. aiyo..
when my bubu said shes married, he had the cheek to ask does ur husband tell u ur beautiful? wth?? i tell her dat almost everyday!! bluek!! to the negro.. tk tau malu.. then bubu kasi dier my number.. so just now this negro msg me saying its wonderful to know u fiz, hope to talk to u later..
well, i'll give him a lot of c*ck to talk to.. im gonna post his number kat gay peh website.. wakakakkakaak...
anyone wants to get to know him? or watever la..
come come.. lelong..
+6592219740
wakakakak
*EvilGrin*
okie baby..
abg wanna pack2 now..
*I, Khairul, am officially obsessed with my dear bubu, Fiza*
@ 6:21 PM
:: ::
I really am feeling very, very guilty now. I should be charged under Love's law, section 143, for abandoning my love on his own.
I'm sorry dear. I know how affected you are from my busy schedule. I haven't been a good lover. I haven't been spending enough time with you these few days, or should I say, 7 straight days. True, we meet every single day. Physically, yes. But emotionally? Are we there yet? I guess the answer is a definite No, that is why we are both feeling so sick with missing each other now. That's the only logical reason I can come up with..
Damn! I feel so bad..
No really, I'm just going to find another job.. The "normal people" working hours job. Not "abnormal people" shift jobs like mine. No, no.. I can't make do with shift jobs whilst having a commitment at the same time. A big NO!
I'm not the only one affected here. Abang is affected too, alot. He complained of not having enough of me these few days. Initially, I thought he might just get used to not having me around so often. But no, he couldn't. He needs me. That poor man. I felt so ached when I have to bear 8 hours in that cold room when I can just spend time with my man outside. And I felt so sad when I got to know that neither Abang was having much fun outside with his friends. I ached.
Tormented, should fit the way we are feeling now. Living in such turmoil. Us fighting our way through to stabilize this bond we are holding onto so tightly. We are warriors. Our enemy : Time.
Kill it, will never happen. Outdo it. We will.
Sooner or later, I know I have to leave. I know I need to leave. Give me more time, give me more patience.. And I'm certain everything will be back to normal.
I feel for you, sayang. I know how disturbing it is for you. You are left on your own. And I am there, miles away from you, answering to the calls of commitment. Abang has even developed a sense of weariness from all other activities that does not involves me. I worry for that. I feel so sad. Feel so sick of life. The man whom I love so much is hurting, and yet the antidote is not even in my power. I can't even do anything about it. I feel so useless now. But dear, I'll change it. I'll change the facts for the future. I'll change my entire world for you, and only you.. I promise you won't go through this again once I get another job.. I'm going to sacrifice.. I really am going to. Nothing's stopping that.
Please be patient dear.. And bear with me for awhile more. And I'm sure you will get what you and I have been wishing for all these times..
Time together.
And sayang, I would like to say this out again (eventhough I have sent it to you via sms). Nothing is going to change my love for you, despite the collision of our timetables. I'm still as faithful as I have always been. I still am loving you every second of my life, conscious or otherwise. Nothing has changed, dear. Nothing has changed.
Trust me. :)
It feels so good to let this all out. I have been cooping it up in a corner of my heart, hoping it'll go away soon but it didn't.. So all the better with this written confession.
Abang.. I love you. You know that I do. Stay with me, through the darkest of times. We know the dark clouds is hovering above us now. Lets fight through it and we'll see the sunlight soon.. It just takes time.
I love you.. So much..
@ 1:56 AM
:: Saturday, August 19, 2006 ::
syg..
abg miss u so much...
went to arwah bum's kenduri yest nite.. then gi tengah... then fetch bubu.. went to marina jap beli air.. spent the nite together..
went to far east to eat.. then send my love to work..
i miss u so much.. i cant take it.. im goin crazy.. i dun have mood to go out.. eventhough its a saturday.. its no fun without u with me.. i dun pick up calls from frens coz i got no mood to go out wit them.. i just want u.. i need u.. i miss u so..
bubu cepat balik.. abg tunggu.. im obsessed about u.. so into u..
yest was fun.. the bubbles and all.. maggi tak sedap.. cold air.. susah parking.. "terminator", tub.. horfun tak cukup kicap.. "r u currently a model",
sittin in the car in front of everybody in the middle of town to wait for ur briefing.. sigh.. i miss u so much..
this song is for u my dear..
(i'm typing them all by hand.. not copy paste tau.. )
tada ku sangka, sejak detik itu
kau membuka pintu, kamar di hatiku
cinta yg terhampar, satu tika dulu
bersinal kembali...
pandainya dikau, mencuri hati ku
dengan kejujuran, dan tingkah lakumu..
memberikan aku, satu keyakinan
menduka berlalu..
akan ku pertahan cinta ini,
demi kesetiaan ku padamu..
akan ku tempuhi onak duri,
demi untukmu bidadari..
percayaaaalahh... janji ku ini..
andainya kau jauh dariku..
dekat di hatiku..
andnya kau yg pergi dulu,
hampalah cinta ku..
jangan tinggalkan ku...
jangan persiakan..
cinta yg murni.....
syg, abg ikhlas in this relationship.. i'll continue to treat u good till forever k.. i luv u so much.. InsyaAllah..
@ 4:21 PM
:: Thursday, August 17, 2006 ::
elo baby.. wah.. baru jek terfikir bubu da tk slalu2 blog..tkde time... aleh2 abg nenok2 see ur post... surprised jugak seyy.. bluek!
well, now im freezin cold in the office, even wit my jacket on!!
ait, u just smsed me.. baru jek kluar?!!? weiii da 12pm seyy... wat time bley reach ni... abg rindu bubu tauu!!!!! :) well, gonna meet my dearest for lunch.. gonna meet her for lunch for the whole of this week actually.. yay yay.. heehee..
pssstt psssstt... my bubu look VERY pwiti in her white office attire yesterday.. XTRA pwety.. seksa plak tu skirt dier.. alala...
well, back to yesterday, ala, wat matters now is tat its solved.. my love for u hasnt decreased 1 bit also syg... ur my one and only... nobody can replace u dear.. (man i cant feel my fingers as im typing this.. so freakin cold!)
i know i can be overprotective at times... but like i said, just tell me if u think i'm startin to be unreasonable k manje.. muackz! cute la my bubu.. so manje.. btw, for all ur info, squatting down bside that rubbish bin (just so tat i could be close to bubu) is not an easy thing wokay! almost half and hour.. sampai cramp kakiku.. wakkakaa..
ala, i know i was wrong in some parts too.. so dats the least i can do.. cute betol my bubu manje.. hug hug kish kish.. heehee..
*wInK* *wInK*
darn.. i dunno how long i can take this refrigerator seyy.. soooo cold.. sape2 nk air sejok? mintak saya ke.. sini sume bende sejok... (cold air is gd for the computers and servers la konon...) (but bad for me... boohooooo :(
ok, lunch wit bubu.. evening balik, mayb go jb jap.. and zoom!zoom gi amek bubu k cyg.. kekeke.. i dun care.. i wanna spend as much time as i can wit her.. will be fetchin her from work every nite! and of coz, wont be goin home straight after tat.. lol *wInK* again.. bluek!!
membebel jek.. well, suka arrhh.. :p
my dearest, lagi 1 more week to chalet.. yay yay! eventhough u gotta work on the days.. we'll still have fun k syg.. LOADS of it.. heehee..
oh ya, im starting to get immuned to ppl askin me out already.. mcm da takde interest tros wanna go out merayap.. be it club ke, chill ke, wateverla.. as long as my bubu's not there, im not interested.. gd la.. same like my bubu already.. yay... dua 2 da immune.. kekekekeke
hmm, friday nite, amek bubu, then sat pun bubu mid shift.. hmmm.... mcm nnk balek all the way jek... gi merayap pun ok gak.. alermak.. ckp pasal merayap jek aleh2 teringat mama bubu.. tat time i went over to her house mamam kejap, she said, hai an, da lama tak nampak.. tk dtg sini pun.. sibuk ke?
ait? baru jek i think about 1 week i didnt see her seyy... hmm... bubu... mama misses me... kekekekeke wah.. one thing leads to another seyy.. u see, tat day when i went over, they were watching concert rock revival.. the first dvd couldnt be read by the player.. ok heres the link.. thinking of tat, i remember, i wanna bring my bubu watch hindustan movie...
"nnt abg bawak bubu gi watch cite hindustan eh..." "nnk!" dengan cepat dier nnk.. i know the reason.. kekekeke.. bubu scared bubu cry2 kan.. heehee.. shes so cute, so adorable.. i love my bubu so much! she is sooo manje..
ala, i love everything about her la.. from the gorgeour way she looks when we're goin to town.. to the cute masam face she puts on when she just wakes up from bed.. heehee.. haizzzz.... love is love.. ape aku mepek i also dunno.. u no nvm..
k la, wanna go wait for my dearest now...
luv u laling...
muackz
muacks!!
@ 11:57 AM
:: ::
Its a fine, fine day.. And I'm hoping for a fine, fine time with Abang later.. Its just too bad.. For the whole of this week, I'm going to be on mid-shift, so less of meeting up with Abang lah, except on his lunchbreak. After that, its one-on-one. Sigh.. Only the first day and we caught ourselves in yet another tiff. How dah like that?
We had a little misunderstanding whilst I was at work yesterday.. And when he fetched me after work, of course lah I would feel a little uncomfortable, right? Anyone would feel the same way what.. You can't expect to push everything aside and pretend as if everything is okay when you know nothing is resolved! So I kept quiet all the way inside the car. Bad idea. Abang got even mad at me.. He walked me home, I walked up the stairs, and upon seeing him gone, I went down again to the opposite block to sit down and comfort myself. Degil betol!! I exchange smses with Abang.. Told him I wasn't at home. And I poured everything out.. And the funny part is when he smsed me this,"Can I request you walk to me? My leg cramp.. I'm just beside the green rubbish bin at the letterbox". Wakakaka!! I wanted to laugh! All along he was actually crouching near the rubbish bin, which was very very near to me.. And I don't even know he was there. He told me he scared an old apek who was sitting somewhere there.. Hahaha! Abang, abang.. You do the stupidest things but yet, I still love you.. And it has not decreased one bit. :)
A little hug hug, a little sorry, a little kiss.. And everything is solved. Its always normal to argue and misunderstand each other in a relationship.. We are lucky though, we managed to resolve it as early as possible. Better still, we don't keep everything inside us. That would only add to the heartaches and prolong matters, right? Geez..
Abang, I understand your insecurities. I understand what you are going through.. You're not being unreasonable, dear.. But being very very protective and caring towards me. I appreciate all that.. I promise I'll try to make things better between us. I promise I'll play my part in building this relationship with you..
To top it off, I love you so much, no matter who you are and what you have done. Please bear that in mind.
Hugs and kisses,
Bubu
@ 10:57 AM
:: Monday, August 14, 2006 ::
Woohoo!! That's 3 deals in a row.. How good can I be at solitaire? Heehee! Abang!! Surprise again!! Ouh.. So now I know.. This untouched computer in my office actually has Internet access, thanks to Fafa's itchy hands, fiddling with this thing. Heehee! Yeay yeay! So now I can update and update without anyone knowing.. Haha! I wonder how many staffs in the FOD knows about this. *winks*
3 more hours to knocking off.. And I haven't even touched my novel yet.. I was abit busy tonight.. So many wake up calls to programme, so many phonecalls and requests from guests.. And in a few minutes time, I'll have plenty of phonecall barrings to do for those rooms checking out today.. Just great!
Tonight Abang was at his unusual behaviour.. Kept saying he missed me and stuff.. Little did he know that I missed him more! You see, people kept interrupting into our plans.. Haha! Wink wink!! So we didn't have much time spent together.. Guess that's why we both missed each other so much, eventhough we have met in the earlier part of the day.
So to catch up on some TLC before I go off to work, Abang drove us to the dam first.. That very memorable place.. It has seen our laughters, and it have also seen our tears.. If ever we were to be apart, I think I would sit there and breathe in the memories that have once invaded that long stretch of road.. Right, dear? Arghh.. No, we're not going to be apart, so lets stop planning for the worst k?
Abang sent me off to work.. Saying goodbye and actually turning away from Abang is the most hardest thing to do.. And it was especially the hardest tonight.. I don't know why.. Guess we got too caught up in our overwhelming emotions.. Sigh.. How can I ever live without you, dear? I can't imagine.. And I won't want to imagine..
Oops.. 4am now.. Wait, wait.. Gotta do some work jap..
***
K I'm back! Job done! So.. For 2 more hrs, all I'm supposed to do is.. Erm.. Read my book? Perhaps..
Wahh.. I'm really cold here, even with my sweater on.. And the funniest thing is, the aircon is already turned off!! Now, how do you explain that huh? Pelik kan kan kan.. Hmm.. You know nevermind.. Really seyy, at times like these, all I really wanna do is be close to you, dear Abang.. But sadly, that won't happen.. Cause we're separated by 14 MRT stations, and you're floating somewhere in Lalaland.. Hrmph!
Eh jap jap.. Ada orang ketuk pintu..
Abang Hamid (security officer) : Fiza dah makan mee?
Me : Dah..
Abang Hamid : Kalau nak lagi, gi lah belakang.. Ada extra 1..
Me : Takperlah.. Kasi Afifah jek..
(pages Afifah)
K back again!
Abang.. Right now I'm thinking of you seyy.. I really dunnoe whats overcomed me right now.. I just felt like as if I need you so much.. Am I being too dependent on you sayang? But I can't help it.. Just can't..
Abang.. I love you so much.. Don't ever leave me please.. And I won't ever leave you too.. You're really God's gift to me.. I treasure you alot.. You have always been there whenever I need someone to love. You have always been such a good man to me.. I am never going to find someone who can love me the way you do.. I am so fortunate to have you in my life.. Syukur Alhamdulillah.. You're the reason I'm breathing to this day.. Smile, dear..
Dahlah.. Gotta go back to whatever I'm supposed to be doing.. Think I'm going out to the toilet.. Seriously, I'm suffering from a serious backache from all that sitting down and doing nothing! (Voice inside my head : Haiz.. Manusia, manusia.. Kerja berat salah, kerja ringan salah.. Tak pernah bersyukur..) Okay okay dear Mr Voice.. I am grateful, thank you very much.. Tengok bang, without you, I da start bebual sendiri.. And I'm showing it publicly too! See, see.. Sampai tulis kat blog sumer.. I really am getting crazy without you..
Oops.. Wake up call dah start!! Arghhh!!! Kena focus..
Okay okay. I really gotta go now.. Abang, see you tomorrow k sweetheart? I promise I'd hug and kiss you to death.. Bye dearest.. Mwaaks!!
@ 3:56 AM
:: Sunday, August 13, 2006 ::
helo..
man i miss her.. waitin in front of the comp now, shes bathing.. i cant wait to be by her side, wit her sweet smelling hair..
they day went like this..
started of from yest nite.. went to causeway pt.. library.. my bubu is now a bookworm.. well, wat can she do? no choice.. shes being paid to read books, sms me, slack.. heehee. shes so cute..
after library, we went of to esplande, darn the traffic was slow.. it took about an hour ++ from my house.. imagine tat.. almost i dunno, 1/3 of the population was gathering there to watch the final day ze fireworks display..
i was gettin fed up by all the cars and busses and bikes.. all the carparks were full.. duh~~ and i do mean ALL!!
so once i saw an empty space by the roadside, i immediately parked the car.. within 10 seconds, a security guard came over and knocked on the glass.. haha.. he said no parking here! heavy vehicles movin out.. it was already 8.45pm!! the fireworks gonna start at 9!!
well, cant do anything.. so i had to drive away.. well, desperate times call for desperate measures.. lol.. i just parked my car sort of like in the middle lane of the road, beside another car already parked by the roadside.. (confusing tak? )
and there u go.. another car parked behind.. and behind.. and so on.. and wala~ u have a new line of cars parked in the middle of the road.. lol..
the fireworks were awesome.. as usual, i love huggin my bubu from behind while watchin the show.. hehe.. tat 15mins of brightness, was filled with ooo... aaahhhhh... wwoooowww.. all tat cant beat the feelings that run thru my mind, body and soul for my dear bubu.. b, i luv u so much..
i cant describe the feelins i have for u, u r so special in my eyes, no one like u has ever come across my path.. all along i tot true love never existed.. sayang, abg will take care of u all my life.. i'll give u a future tat u've always wished for.. haizZz.. sowi people.. got too carried away.. nvm..
so after tat send bubu to work.. and off i went to tengah.. talk2 jap.. then go home lor.. (da no mood to write ah.. haha.. i wanna go siap2.. meeting my bubu in a few mins.. then wanna go dam.. heehee.. nk luvin2 jap.. shes workin later on.. aww... so i better go and lepaskan sume rindu ni dulu.. if not wait mlm cannot sleep..
bubu..i'm comin.... muackz!
InsyaAllah, we'll last till eternity..
i luv u dear..
@ 7:42 PM
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Abang!! Surprised to see this entry? Well guess what.. I have access to the Internet, right here in the Business Centre, but just for a few minutes.. In case I get caught.. Illegal!! Heehee! Its just me and Afifah on duty.. Nothing much to do.. So we "stole" the password, and log in.. Recreate our friendster profile and everything.. We are so doomed.. Haha!
Abang.. If you're reading this.. Best ah berdengkur.. I'm suffering here right now.. So damned tired and sleepy.. And yea, the female voice I heard in the service lift, it was just one nothing-better-to-do security guard playing pranks on poor us.. It was such a relieve to know that..Heehee!
I can't wait to knock off from work.. In 2 1/2 hrs more.. Wanna go JB with Abang in the early morning.. Knocking off at 7am, then proceed to meet Abang at Admiralty around 8.. I really hope Abang will wake up.. Oh gosh.. I just checked, my eyes are halfway closed..Oh no!! Abang baru compliment bubu, said that my eyes no longer have eyebags.. I guess those faithful companions of mine are in the return.. Heehee!
Gotta go now.. Have some night audits and phonecall barrings to do.. Abang, I love you so much dearest.. We'll spend some quality time again later k? And by the way, Abang and I watched the fireworks again at Esplanade.. My so sweet Abang just illegally parked the car, just so that I won't miss the spectacular show.. Isn't that sweet? He risked being summoned just to make me happy.. I am sooo touched..
Abang.. I love you with all my heart.. Please don't ever leave me.. Right now, I'm just missing you so much. If only you can be here with me in the office.. Sigh.. Guess I'd have to wait, and wait again.. For tomorrow to come by.. And bring me straight into your arms..
Remember this dear, you're my everything.. Without you.. I am nothing..
Mwaaks!
@ 4:35 AM
:: Saturday, August 12, 2006 ::
Happy happy Saturday everyone! I got up feeling refreshed and so at ease today.. And yeah.. Sorry for I have sinned.. I have not been updating as daily as I have always been.. But dears, time have always been a factor, you see. It has taken its control over me, and I'm under its reign now. So please bear with it yeah.. And don't worry.. I will always update whenever I have enough time in my hands..
Life hasn't been very bliss.. I was always on the move, rushing here and there.. Doing whatever I have to do, fulfilling all my duties as a lover, a daughter, a sister, a friend and a colleague. I'm now like a walking octopus.. Doing multiple things at once. But I'm loving it. I have been slacking for quite some time and this is almost like a wake-up call to get up and go.
Abang and I, we are fine. A few tiffs here and there but what's love without it? Its only normal.. And its just the way we handle everything which comes our way which matters. And dear, I will never ever leave you. Please don't be afraid of loving me.. :)
I haven't mentioned how happy I was when Abang surprised me on Wednesday, have I? He was so sweet. I couldn't stop smiling just thinking about it. He smsed me and told me that I have to call him after I finished work, not after I left work. So I called him, and I asked him where he was. He told me he's in the toilet.. Well, I just shrugged it off. So I walked out of work, and that dearest of mine on the phone told me to turn behind. So I turned, and saw him!! I couldn't express to you how happy I was at that time.. I ran and hugged him.. So sweet!! And he saw that I was smiling all the while. That was really sweet.. Nobody has ever done that to me.. Seriously.
It meant even more because he was supposed to go to work the next day. But he still insists on fetching me, when I finished work at 11pm. That indeed, is such a sweet act. I appreciate it, dearest.. and I appreciate you.. No worries..
Well, I'm just going to wrap all this up. Actually in no mood to write but just writing because I don't want to lose all my ardent readers. Heehee! Abang, please keep updating when I'm not around..
To Abang, I still love you no matter what. My love has not decreased one bit.. Dear, please forgive me for all I have said or done, whether intentional or not. You are the only one in my heart.. May we last till eternity.. I love you.
@ 3:31 PM
:: Wednesday, August 09, 2006 ::
sittin by the phone, but its not ringing..
nobody's missin u, who am i kiddin..
bubu, abg miss u so much.. it'd have been so much fun if u din have to work today...
somemore tml werk mornin plak tu.. haizZz.. bubu, i'm so tired now.. but heck.. im gonna give u a surprise.. i'll give u a surprise.. im gonna fetch u ltr.. i dun care.. rindu ku untukmu terserlah.. its much harder to bear missin u then bearin wit my exhaustion..
so tats wat i'll do.. i guess i better go bathe now.. muackz! heehee.. ingatkan nak blog panjang2... but cannot la.. i wanna meet u.. blog sini hilangkan rindu tak same ngan gi jumpe bubu.. heehee..
bubu.. iimmm ccooommmiiinnngggg!!!!!
@ 10:08 PM
:: Tuesday, August 08, 2006 ::
c'mon, sum ppl just cant mind their own business.. its not the first time, and its not only happenin to me.. its also happenin to my bubu.. now i know how she felt when other gerls called up talkin about me..
can u believe wat DANIEL ZAFFIRUL SENT TO ME? DAN_ZAFFIRUL@HOTMAIL.COM
haha, just deliberately wanna make it public.. its not workin la boy.. gimme prove.. u hilang for 2 3 weeks, then come disturb me again, hilang again, then come kacau again.. aiyo.. to those ppl who dislike this kinda people.. help us do sumthin pls.. he's up there.. there there.. email there.. *wInK*
and also to the girl version of this daniel... stop watever ur doin la k.. hilang 2 3 weeks, then suddenly call up and kacau.. haiZzZz....
bubu, abg will always luv u.. abg will alwayz be yours.. im not gonna let others easily disturb our relationship..
we'll be strong k manje.. luv u wit all my heart.. muacks!!!
bluek to those cemburu of us ppl!!
:Þ
@ 4:39 PM
:: Monday, August 07, 2006 ::
Wah.. I see updates la!! And long long updates too.. Heehee! Thanks sayang for updating .. At first when Abang said he's updating the blog, I thought perhaps the typical lazy him would update just a few lines or so.. But when I logged on last night.. Whoa! It was long long entries, and I enjoyed reading it! Heehee! See, Abang not so lazy after all. Hmm.. I should work more on weekends, and leave him to attend to himself, so he'll get bored, and update! Yes, yes.. That should be it! Perfect plan! *wink*
Well, I'm on X shift today - OFF DAY! Finally, I managed to get some TLC for myself. Work wasn't so hectic, however.. In fact, it was booooring.. I was working the morning shift yesterday, and boy, it was utter boredom. I kept spinning around in the chair in the office and read my novel.. And occasionally, exchanged smses with Abang. What a life!
Abang fetched me from work.. And off we set to East Coast!! We just planned on giving ourselves a break, stroll around and put our minds at ease. And upon our arrival, we saw a HUGE sandcastle. Apparently, there was a sandcastle-making competition.. And the biggest sandcastle was indeed very big, complete with slopes and stairwells, the works! It was really significant among the others. Abang has its picture.. Perhaps I shall put it up next time when I get hold of it, alright? Hmm.. I wonder how they can even manage to make the whole thing stand. It was sand,remember? Fragile and delicate.. Anytime can roboh.. And Abang and I have wicked ideas of throwing balls and whathaveyous to collapse the whole thing. Heehee!
We then had enough of sandcastles, and walked to Bedok Jetty. The sun was up and shining its rays down on poor us, but the cold wind played its part too.. It was a great combination.. Sunny, but windy.. We sat on a bench, and looked out to the sea.. We enjoyed it. It felt so relaxing.. And so romantic. Heehee! It was indeed a treat for us lovers.. Seeing beautiful natural elements like the ocean, makes me feel like I'm loving Abang more by the second. Awww..
We then had lunch at the lined-up food stalls. The fish & chips I had was so-so.. Not so nice lah. Nothing special.. And Abang ate the Nasi Ayam Penyet.. Haha! He was sweating, and his face was flustered all over.. He looked like he has just finished running! All because of that sambal.. Guess it was really hot. Heehee! Cute lah my sayang.. Muacks!
After eating, we watched the cool water-skiing.. Nice, nice! Wish I could go on it someday.. Then we proceed again to the beach.. Stroll around for awhile, before deciding to take the mat from the car and sit down under the shady tree.. Well, we sat and talked and "spend our time". Heehee!
After all that, we went to the dam. Abang wanted to pass the time, because he's supposed to fetch his atok and nenek from the airport.. So we laypuck la.. Ate ice cream, then we both fell asleep in the car. It was nice having Abang to sleep on my lap.. I stroke his hair and pat him to sleep.. And a few minutes later, I was the one gone! Don't blame la hor.. I haven't had enough sleep!
We were awake at around 1230 and had our supper of roti prata from Broadway.. Abang then sent me home.. I got myself dressed and browsed the Net. So damn bored at home.. I waited till Abang gets home then only do I sleep. I was told that Siti and Amir's grandfather just passed away.. Condolences to them.. =(
Now I'm still just as bored. No one's home, no one for me to disturb.. Heehee! Guess I'd better go do some reading now.
Abang, I lap u foreva! Muacks!
@ 10:50 AM
:: Sunday, August 06, 2006 ::
Status
546 new images in phone
48 new videos in phone
gosh.. its been a month since i uploaded my pics into the comp.. no wonder my phones slowly getttin laggy.. anyways.. gd mornin!! i cant get back to sleep!! arghh!! i'm missin my bubu waaaaayyyy ttooooo much!!!
yesterday was GreAt! fetch bubu from work.. the train journey to her workplace was like soooo boring seyy!! i didnt get a seat in the train also.. haizzZZ... planned to meet at 5 ShArP! at macdonalds.. buy as usual, my dear bubu was late! but nvm.. it was worth the wait.. shes my darlin pwincess afterall.. btw, which pwincess comes on time?!?
we headed to tong seng to eat.. i was famished! dunno why also.. padahal i ate branch around 12+ to 1pm.. must have been the exercise la.. i think tats why.. we ate roasted chicken rice.. usual for me.. actually, as far as i can remember, ive only eaten chicken rice and prawn noodle everytime im there.. nvr tasted other stuffs..
we walked down to shaw.. tot of catchin a movie there, but errrr.. the shows are alah.. dunno why la, mcm tak shiok gitu nenok kat situ.. so we went over to engwah.. suntec city.. both of us had been wanting to watch click.. so there we were, queueing up for the tix.. it was already 630, the next show was at 710.. when i asked the counter, she said, only left 4 rows from the front.. huh?!? sape yg nk gi nenok cam gitu peh dekat seyy!!
so the fickle minded me, decided to go to marina.. but blom lagi kluar engwah, kiter patah balik.. took the 920 tix.. haha.. this timing 920, is important.. must take note... lol so we got the tix, and jalan2 towards marina..
sit2 kejap, talk2 kejap, enjoyed the wind that nvr stopped blowing.. and off we walked.. to where else.. esplanade lorr
sumting surprised us the moment we got there.. there were soo many people seyy! haha.. when i saw some peeps preparing their comp, i suddenly remembered, 5th august!! fireworks!! wat a coincidence!!!! missin the 710 show was a blessing in disguise.. haha.. eehh, salah, alhamdulillah.. :)
there we were, walkin along esplanade, to and fro.. heres, the funny part, at first, we got ourselves ready for it to start at 8pm... NO it didnt.. so we tot, hey, ok la.. lets take a seat, mayb its at 830.. by 825, we stood up.. haha.. 830 passed.. 840 passed.. the bunga api didnt start.. lol.. we stood up for no reason.. lol.. remember.. our movie was at 920..
"are u ready mr nathan" lerr.. it was 9pm.. dorang tengah tunggu mr nathan ready to watch rupenye.. lerrr... we waited from 7 to 9 seyy... !!! 3, 2, 1, @%$&^*^&%#
YAY!! it was nice!! noice!!! i couldn't help but hug my bubu tightly.. luv her so much.. its like, hmm, i cant seem to find words to express the feelings i had.. b, i luv u..i want u.. i need u.. in my life~~
915 -end- of fireworks.. haha.. immediately, we turned back.. and literally, 'jogged' our way, pass thru swarms of people.. turnin left, right, gostan sikit.. stop kejap.. accelerating again.. lol.. farnee my bubu.. she's quite good at this u know.. i think she must have picked the skill during those morning rush... lol..
the feelin of needing to walk quick, with heels!! and lots and lots and lots of people.. aiyo.. cannot describe ah.. the tot of missin the movie did come across my mind.. but we've been wantin to watch click for quite sum time liao leh.. even b4 it came out.. so we just carried on.. and on.. and on.. :) the journey back to eng wah, was like soo the very long seyy.. must have been coz we all too excited ah.. my bubu was sweating!! kekekeekkeke
we reached at 935.. bought drinks, entered, and the show just started.. at the intro.. how lucky can one get.. *wInk*
the show was hilarious.. couldnt stop luffin.. but there were sad sad parts too.. and well, u guessed it rite.. time sad2 parts.. waterfall ah.. ape lagi.. ehem2.. u know la.. ala.. ehem2 again.. u know la.. kekekekekeke
sit2 jap kat fountain.. then off back home... in the train, not much seats, so bubu sat while i stood in front of her.. i told her to get a nap first coz besok werk pagi.. tak sampai 1minit.. poof! she went off to dreamland.. and i do mean 1 minute!! coz i can see her jari like, terperanjat2 like tat.. ala..u know wat im talkin about.. haha..
apek kat sebelah turun kat amk seyy.. i think amk ah.. cant remember.. sent bubu home.. then i also went home lorr... hate it when ppl keeps callin askin me out at times like this.. so tempting.. haizZz..
anyways, i luv my bubu.. will alwez will, nothing can change tat.. bluek! bubye bubu.. hepi werking.. heehee..
muacks!
@ 10:29 AM
:: Saturday, August 05, 2006 ::
feelin so warm now, the suns not givin any pity on anybody i suppose.. with my stomach full of rice and fish, here i am, sittin and typin to pass my time away..
bubu's at work, i miss her so.. nvm.. im gonna fetch her ltr on.. just a few more hours to go.. heehee.. my dear bubu ni.. suker sangat mamam dlm ofis.. haizz.. actually i got so much to write.. but biler da start.. then i think about how much i miss her.. jadi takde mood plak.. ish...tsktsktsk
neway, yest went hm first b4 meetin my laling.. duk tengah kejap.. toktok.. aiyo.. why is it when i dun have the time then ppl start calling and calling and askin me out.. duh~ when i hv the time.. tak banyak cam gini.. grrr... yest nite was like the tahan nafsu nite.. lol.. so tempted to go out seyy.. nvm.. i know my bubu loves me.. and i know that she does knows i love her just as much; more... :)
di malam semalam yg sejuk itu.. ku dakap tubuhmu dekat denganku..
fikiran ku melayang.. betulkan tindakan aku ini.. menyesalkah ku di kelak hari..
lalu kau berkata.. abg, ku sayangkan mu.. tidak kan kau menyesali setiap tindakan mu ini.. ku telah menjelajahi rimba cinta yg penuh dugaan.. takkan ku mahu mengalami kesemua itu lagi.. then continue2 continue2 lagi.. chattin wit my bubu now.. da takde mood ah..
tbc..
salam cinta dariku...
untukmu...
adidanku....
chet!
@ 1:05 PM
:: Friday, August 04, 2006 ::
I am in a very good mood right now so guess I might list some updates on this otherwise boring blog. The past few days have been really shagging for me. Need alot of adjustments and warming-up on this new responsibility I am currently shouldering.. And of course, a LOT of time-adjusting to do with my beloved Abang.. So you could have probably guessed the amount of pressure imposed.
Today was great, however! I cleared my work slowly, but steadily.. I am already "on the ball".. Yeehaa! Two thumbs up for me. I wasn't very hungry come lunchtime, though.. But I've prepared for myself a bun just in case. So naturally when a colleague of mine asked if I'm out for lunch, I said no, and offered to sit in for her duty while she have her meal. So she got up and off to the canteen.. And a few minutes later, she came down with MY meal as well, no veggies.. Just according to my preference!! I was surprised, and told her there was really no need to bring down food for me.. And her reply,"Its okay.. I scared later you hungry..". I was soooo touched! How sweet can anyone be, tell me?!
Then another sweet moment came.. My request for school was immediately approved by the FOM! How nice!! She even told me,"School? Why not?? We're not here to stop you from being who you want to be. We can't just let you sit here and rot. We believe that you should also try to upgrade yourselves. Its for your own good, what. One of the FOAs are also in school.. There's really no stopping you. The only thing you should do is, change your shifts with the others if it collides with your class' schedule.. I'm sure your colleagues will understand..".
I didn't believe that somehow I managed to summon all courage I possess into asking that little question,"Is it possible if I continue school?". And to think that I received that answer was like the biggest achievement ever. Those words were like gold, believe it or not. I felt like jumping up and down, run around the BC like a mad hooligan and hug and kiss the FOM or anyone else in sight. I was so happy! I smsed immediately to Mama and Abang.. Both were pleased.. I know I can have it, if I just keep on trying.. Syukur Alhamdulillah..
See, working in the Front Office Dept of a hotel makes it impossible to even do any other stuff besides work due to the long hours and the shift duties. And if you read the archives of this blog, you might also come to know that I was once dismissed from almost clinching a job at the Singapore Marriotts Hotel simply because I was told that I must commit the fullest, and that my decision of taking up a part-time class is undesirable.
Big booooooo!!!
Finally, the emotional distress is over.
This calls for a celebration..
..and more adjustments to make.
But slowly, we will get used to the change. Hopefully. Need some help from Abang lah.. Okie Abang? But I know Abang is supportive enough of my dreams and hopes.. He is one good other half, I tell you. I cannot/need not ask for more from him.. He gave me enough. And I am very content with him.. =)
What I wasn't content with, however, is the fact that some friends (or so they call themselves) have been avoiding me for no particular reason. Why?? Because I'm no longer hanging out with them? Because I no longer club? Why?? No logical reason at all for them to keep shunning me like this. I felt like a total outcast. These people have known me for years, they should understand more of me than anyone else, and be actually mature enough to think of to whose benefit it is from my actions.
Tsk tsk tsk.. This is monkey business. I'm sick and tired of being in an active social life. Think I'm just gonna stick to my faithful confidantes. Those that I know loves me the way I am and still treats me the same no matter how far I seemed to be straying from them, because you see, I can never go too far without turning back once in awhile.. I love my friends. I treasure them like none other. But then again, trust me, you can never please everyone. So like it or not, this is just the way its gotta be. I'm just going to sit here and watch as to how long this drama would go on. If it goes on forever then forever it'll be. Call me egoistical.. But I think I have given TOO much leeway. Too much.
And everyone knows too much of something is bad. Real bad.
Forget the depression. My life is good. And I so know it.
@ 6:54 PM
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gd mornin baby!!
wah.. finally.. its friday!!! yay!!! -ninja!!!
so sad we cant go together this morning.. nvm.. nnt evenin time abg fetch bubu from work k baby!! realy seyy, so glad its friday.. i luv u syg... ok ok wanna go out now.. i dun wanna be late.. heehee.. muacksZ!!! actually i wanna sms u all this, but tkpe la.. kasi surprise sikit since my comp is on.. bluek! sowi eh kalau ader sedikit berteraboh.. :)
@ 7:01 AM
:: Wednesday, August 02, 2006 ::
Abang!! I told you to go to sleep and what did you do?? Update the blog! And when I told you to update the blog, you sleep!! Grrr.. I'm so going to bite you first thing when I see you tomorrow. Heehee!
Abang.. How can I even forget that meaningful silence and that romantic lingering stare we shared with each other? Silence.. That was it. But more "words" was exchanged between us. Magical, isn't it? Well.. Guess that's what happens when you're really and truly in love.
Okies.. The day was fine, bright, shining and my face was shining as well (read: oily). The Business Centre was cold, I was shivering, the canteen food was bad, my feet was aching all day long thanks to the annoying heels I've just bought and God save me from any other worse happenings. All piled onto me on one freaking day.
I was lucky I came out alive.
Abang and I had dinner at Causeway Point's Banquet. Trust me, the Cockles Kway Teow Goreng is the best ever!! And trust me on another one, the queue is damn long. So you have to wait.. And wait.. And wait..
And so we wait.
For about a good 45 minutes or so. Simply for that Cockles Fried Kway Teow.
But it was worth the wait, of course. Thumbs up!
And during the meal, a spooky (in Abang's words) thing happened. I was humming in my heart this particular song, and guess what.. A few minutes later, Abang was singing it out a bit too loud!! OH MY GOODNESS! Is that freaky or what?? Guess its our telepathy at its best again. Heehee!
Then we spent the night together. Lovey-dovey creatures.. Beware everyone! Heehee! Nothing new.. The usual giggling, sickening us at the dam. Nice, really nice.
Alamak! 11:30pm already.. I hate to but I have to go now. Promised to call Abang.. Okies okies sayang.. I'm calling now.. Don't you go anywhere. Bye all!!
p/s: Abang.. Answer the phone! I miss and I love you!! Mwaaks!
pp/s: Abang.. Don't think you're the only one who can create a secret post. Here's a secret for you! Make sure you're surprised now. Heehee!
@ 11:17 PM
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im writin this in secret..
wanna say tat, i had a very depressing morning today.. i held on.. i knew it was just the beginning.. tats why i felt tat way.. my bubu is so sweet.. i love her so much.. i adore her.. i treasure her..
b, remember tat second when we were in the car a few mins ago.. tat time spent in silence..lookin into each others eyes.. and wat i said k dear.. i promised u.. and i promise to u again.. i luv u wit all my heart..
bubu.. im alwez yours.. i belong to u.. i love u b...
gd nite~
@ 12:08 AM
:: Tuesday, August 01, 2006 ::
Wah.. Best! I am done with 3 chapters of "Likely To Die", a sex-crime prosecution novel by Linda Fairstein. Macam detective I nih.. It was so so so exciting. You become part of the story almost at once, and I was oblivious to my surroundings, being too caught up in the story. Now I'm on break, and I felt like updating, so here I am..
I miss Abang alot.. He called awhile ago but I still miss him.. I wonder why. Guess I'm too attached to him already that a few hours of being apart is more than unbearable to me. Hmm.. Nak kena adjust sikit.. Cause we have been too close already. Imagine lah, every single day is shared between the both of us. Straightjack.. Tak miss satu hari pun. Even if we can't meet on the earlier part of the day, we would spend it on the later part of the day instead. Degil betul kita nih! Married couples pun kalah. Sampai dah kena "email". Haha!
So what I intend to do is, nanti when we start having jobs (and school, for me) as priority, we will slowly2 pull away from each other. Not pull away totally, of course. Just learn to be without each other for sometime, and surviving it! If you were to ask me to do so now, that would mean suffocation for me. I can't breathe without my Abang for now!
Sigh.. Yesterday night spent at the dam was romantic, bliss. We talked about this, that, the future plans, "budget plans".. Heehee! So fun! I really am very comfortable with Abang, that I opened up my true self, sampai dah tak tahu malu with Abang. Hehe! He saw my weak points of course, but still, he loves me the same, or so I suppose. Heehee! And Abang really is very funny. Masih ingat lagi the first time we met, macam kental seyy. Abang and I diam aje. Yazid yang banyak membebel. Kira macam ice-breaker gitu lah. And I find Abang very the abang2 nye type. That's the first impression lah. Rupanya, after so long, baru I find out, dia pun gila2 gak. And when I point that out to him, he point it back at me! He said I yang gila2, then dia terikut2. Wahlau! Dah gila taknak mengaku!
Heehee! Cute lah Abang..
Abang did some comforting to me in the car.. He told me alot of things, which I'm going to hold onto in times when I need comfort. I really love Abang.. He did numerous wonderful things for me, just to see me happy. No one has ever cared so much for me. He's the first, and he will be the last.. No doubt.
Abang.. Love you!!
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